I know it is egotistical, but I have always loved my birthday. Shoot, I even dub it Celebrate Ginger Day.
Silly, right? Overboard? Probably...but I like the idea of a birthday. It is a day that is about you. It is about you becoming part of the world -- leaving your mark, no matter how big or small that mark is.
And it is a good reason to have a good time with loved ones and friends.
But I am not feeling it this year. I just don't care about my birthday. I haven't even called it Celebrate Ginger Day...well except once, but it was a joke.
It could be age, I guess.The Giggler is hitting the big 33. Sigh, that doesn't make me old. Age is suppose to be just a number, nothing else. I decide when I am old.
These days I do feel kinda old and obsolete. Like today. May 18 is the 30th anniversary of Mount St. Helen's big eruption. Now I was only 3 years old when this occurred, but it happened in my lifetime. Many of the people I work with -- the reporters -- weren't even born yet. I think the oldest reporter is 26 -- but he does knows who New Kids on the Block are and is familiar with the song "Hanging Tough." (I hope you laughed at the last part -- it is true but funny)
Maybe I am just looking at where I am. I love my life and I'm pretty happy. But I haven't written a book yet. And I can never find the time to revisit my capstone paper so I can revise it and it get it published. I haven't even finished reading a book about the Italian campaign yet.
Maybe my birthday has me down because I realize there is so much to do and so little time.
That's kind of depressing, too.
Perhaps my birthday gift to myself is to make time for the things I want to do and when birthday no. 34 comes around, we will be Celebrating Ginger again.
I always liked to celebrate it as my birthday month. For some reason, I like my birthday too. I don't need gifts or parties, just a few birthday wishes from people I like and care about. Whats important though Giggler, even as time marches on, is that we keep trying to get all the things done we wanted to do. The important thing is to charge through life and grab all the chances you can. Then, even if you run out of time, you have taken everything your little arms can reach, and that's gotta be a settling thought when you're facing the Great Beyond.
ReplyDeleteFrank, this is what I love about you...you always have the right attitude!
ReplyDeleteNow, do you want to help revise a capstone paper so I can get published and start my path of being a well known historian, or at least known :)?